I started this blog mainly as a space for myself to share my feelings and experiences with others, in hopes that it might help a few people along the way. With that said, I want to be 100% honest and talk about how I have been feeling the last 3-4 weeks.
It has been rough. February is always a tough month for me emotionally. I tend to always get a bad case of the “winter blues” and can not find any inspiration, motivation or determination to do ANYTHING. This year it has been particularly brutal. I had days where I only left my bedroom to go to the bathroom or let the dogs out a couple of times. I would wallow in self pity all day because I am not happy with the season of life I am currently in and I am not making enough money. And instead of getting my shit together and doing something to help better my situation, I laid in bed feeling sorry for myself and wondering why I am so stupid/lazy/talentless. It has been a vicious cycle the past few weeks, but I am determined to break it.
This upcoming week I am not going to allow myself to sleep late, stay in bed or have negative feelings. I want to wake up and read/say some positive affirmations first thing. I have my whole month preplanned out for blog posts, orders, new projects, etc. A huge part of my happiness depends on planning ahead and knowing what is coming. I NEVER do well when I am living in limbo, and even though there are areas of my life that are very much going into the unknown right now, I need to plan any thing I can. It has also helped me a ton to have my giant wall calendar that I can look at and know that spring is only a bit over two weeks away. I know the snow will stop, the sun will come out, and the flowers and trees will start to bloom soon.
Hopefully, through planning and just forcing myself to get it together I can turn these winter blues around and get into a better headspace so that when spring does come, I am the best version of myself that I can be!
Let me know if any of you guys suffer from the winter blues and how you combat it.